[Epub] ↠ My Abandonment Author Peter Rock – 1sm.info

My Abandonment I have mixed feelings about this book It was a fast, thought provoking read but it left me with many unanswered questions, particulary since it was based on a true case The beginning of the book seemed to include many facts that had been published in news articles, but the ending was Peter Rock s fictional version I found some of this not to fit the characters The reference to Elizabeth Smart in the Acknowledgments was disturbing to me. Let me start with the following I am so freaking confused by this book.When I read the back of the book, I knew it was about a father and his 13 year old kid and they re trucking around all of Portland and living in the woods and all that That much is true And before I attempted to really get into the book I did some research on here and found that mostly it was well liked, and the ones that weren t well liked, well, didn t give enough reason for me to be completely turned off.My issues aren Let me start with the following I am so freaking confused by this book.When I read the back of the book, I knew it was about a father and his 13 year old kid and they re trucking around all of Portland and living in the woods and all that That much is true And before I attempted to really get into the book I did some research on here and found that mostly it was well liked, and the ones that weren t well liked, well, didn t give enough reason for me to be completely turned off.My issues aren t that it s not well written It s written just fine I guess my issue is that it s very bland I went and did this And then I did this And then I turned the corner, making sure I was away from Father It s very dry I never get into the mind of this character the book is through the daughter s perspective , I never understand how she is feeling or what is going on with her psyche I mean this guy is basically shlepping her around these random places and you have no idea where they re going or what she REALLY thinks of it And that just bugs me.What also bugs me is the fact that the father is a bit on the creeper side He continuously calls his daughter my heart which just freaks me out I don t know, it rubs me the wrong way I was worried that at any moment it was going to get incestuous because the relationship between these two individuals is just not healthy I get why she might be clingy to her father seeing as, I don t know, she s been living like a nomad for about four years of her formative life in the woods, but the way her father brushes her hair and says all these things to her sounds like he s in love with her and not caring for her in a father to daughter relationship Another thing that really bugs me is the fact that the father is clearly not right in the head, and I don t ever think it is established how un right in the head he is It s just one big ball of confusing mass he keeps saying they re being watched, and eventually his excuses of move move move get so grating and annoying that every time he talks about them being watched I literally react like this Maybe I m being too harsh, but do you know when you finally figure shit out Like, in the last twenty pages That s frustrating as hell While I kept reading it because I was nervous that something awful was going to happen to the girl, the ending is just ridiculous There are so many questions I want to ask and I want to understand but I can t because the book never actually answers anything I don t know I just feel like this book was 200 pages of nothing I really didn t understand anything that was going on This girl had someone who may have been her father May not have been her father I m just sitting here confused I feel robbed I want those hours back, and I want them back now As a Portland resident, it was fun to hear descriptions of the city and Forest Park I enjoyed the writing style from 13 year old Caroline s perspective.After reading some news stories about the true story behind this novel, it s evenintriguing to me Even though I have alredy sent this, I am updating for my Best of 2009 list, and this review goes along with Jennie Shortridge s WHEN SHE FLEW Both of these are based on the true story of the father and pre teen daughter who lived off the grid in Portland s Forest Park for four years but each author treats the story a little differently Rock s story is told in an almost surreal and disassociated manner and Shortridge deliversof an emotional punch Both are interesting and would be great f Even though I have alredy sent this, I am updating for my Best of 2009 list, and this review goes along with Jennie Shortridge s WHEN SHE FLEW Both of these are based on the true story of the father and pre teen daughter who lived off the grid in Portland s Forest Park for four years but each author treats the story a little differently Rock s story is told in an almost surreal and disassociated manner and Shortridge deliversof an emotional punch Both are interesting and would be great for book groups.If you want to readof what I previously wrote Update Again, I really wish they had.5 stars because this really does fall in between 4 and 5 stars.In 2004 a man and his 12 year old daughter were found living in Portland s Forest Park and had been doing so for 4 years The girl was clean, well fed, and well educated, but they were forced to leave A police officer found them housing and work on a horse farm in Yamhill County but five days later they disappeared, never to be heard from again.The author, a writing professor at Reed College has written a novel based on this event and the first half is based on their life in Forest Park In the second half of the book, he imagines what happened to them after they left the horse farm This took a strange little twist and some of the girl s experiences didn t seem quite realistic I won t sayfor fear of a spoiler but for the most part I found it fascinating.One weird event happened for me, though This past week I was attending the library conference while also trying to finish the book When I neared the end of the story, the girl in the story described the Sisters Library to a T and also mentioned the librarian s name, which was Peg Well, Peg was the actual librarian at the Sisters Library AND was also at the conference I was able to show her the passage and she got really excited Stranger than fiction A compelling and thought provoking book I live in Portland so I was familiar with the setting in Forest Park the city I was also familiar with the true story behind this novel A father daughter spent four years living in Forest Park in a shelter the father built He home schooled the daughter using his own knowledge a set of encyclopedias The father was a veteran had a small military pension, so they were able to go into the city buy groceries, clothing as neede A compelling and thought provoking book I live in Portland so I was familiar with the setting in Forest Park the city I was also familiar with the true story behind this novel A father daughter spent four years living in Forest Park in a shelter the father built He home schooled the daughter using his own knowledge a set of encyclopedias The father was a veteran had a small military pension, so they were able to go into the city buy groceries, clothing as needed, go to the library They used a nearby creek for washing grew vegetables When they were found living there, the girl, age 12 13, tested far above average academically.Peter Rock s book is based on their story takes off from there Caroline is the narrator, though I ve read some criticism of Rock s writing in this regard, I thought it was very well done Her voice is simultaneously innocent and fierce very detached yet filled with the ghost of hidden anger sadness Rock uses Caroline s perspective language ability which is high but spare in its expression throughout It s apparent that Father taught Caroline many things but he never taught her much about feelings or how to express them When he wants to talk to her about important things, he does so in a very factual way, or he quotes from his favorite writers Caroline is never going to do the reveal Her life is all about hiding She is reporting what she wants us to know, that s all you re going to get I enjoyed the spare, detached quality of the writing, which seemed sometimes elegiac sometimes so brutally factual I could hardly breathe I find my reaction to many books is that they need an editor This is not one of those The first part of the book is almost idyllic as you learn about Father Caroline s lives in the park The relationship between them seems sweet at first but always has an edge that leaves you wondering Of course, they are eventually found the rest of the book focuses on their journey after that One thing I really enjoyed about the book was its very subtle creepiness What sounds idyllic, isn t First foremost, we re not really sure about Caroline s relationship with Father We know that they care for one another as best they can in their own ways But we know Caroline is in, or entering, puberty and an unanswered question is how this might affect her relationship with Father When they re not in the woods, things can be scary Caroline talks about living in a hotel that s about to be torn down, how she has to negotiate through the partially ruined building, stay locked up when Father isn t there, to stay safe Father negotiates with people who are stealing transporting copper wire There is some harrowing information about people who are tapping into electricity Caroline finally reveals a little about her past, which brings up other questions about her relationship with Father My heart stopped for a moment when she mentions in passing handcuffs Who is Father, really Rock is genius at giving a mostly sympathetic portrayal of a man who was, at best, unconventional, caring, smart, a victim of PTSD or, at worst, a kidnapper, child molester, high functioning mentally ill person These glimpses of who Father is or might be, left me wondering, which was fine with me I also thought Rock s handling of Father s gradual deterioration was very well done I thought Father, as a character, maintained his integrity throughout Can a good man be misguided Of course Can an evil man be good in some ways Who knows Which kind of man was Father really As a reader, you have to form your own conclusions In Caroline, we see that we all learn from our circumstances and upbringing, no matter what that is, though we might be horrified by what s happened to her, we also see that she s strong, intelligent, resourceful and detached Another source of subtle creepiness comes when Caroline starts to wonder about having a companion that she can bring into her life We are left wondering Is she just lonely, at that point Does she think of her father think, I too can choose someone make them mine How will this play out for her I think some reviewers felt confused by her actions toward the end She seems to be reaching for what we might call normal life with one hand, rejecting it with the other I found this to be understandable within her character also It s pretty clear to me that she wants both How would you not I also loved the play on words themes that comes from thinking about abandonment within the context of this book Every problem I have comes from believing something to be true that is not true, Caroline writes in her journal This is a powerful statement that might apply to most of us In Caroline s case, particularly so This book brings up and leaves unanswered, many questions If you need your books tied up with neat pretty little ribbons so that you know what happened every character is typed and labeled, you won t like it If you like to think draw your own conclusions, you want a book with compelling characters, subtle creepiness, interesting setting yay, Oregon a story that will stick with you, this is for you This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers To view it, click here Spare prose and an intriguing narrative with a narrator whose view of the world has been skewed by her unusual experiences with Father, living in a cave in the forest park in Portland as well as the streets and condemned hotels of the city Caroline s judgment is clouded by her love for Father and her need to continue their routines and follow his lead.SPOILER ALERT SPOILER ALERT SPOILER ALERT The fact that Caroline wasn t who she had made herself believe she was kidnapped Spare prose and an intriguing narrative with a narrator whose view of the world has been skewed by her unusual experiences with Father, living in a cave in the forest park in Portland as well as the streets and condemned hotels of the city Caroline s judgment is clouded by her love for Father and her need to continue their routines and follow his lead.SPOILER ALERT SPOILER ALERT SPOILER ALERT The fact that Caroline wasn t who she had made herself believe she was kidnapped at 10 from her foster family was, not a huge surprise, but somewhat of a surprise as the narrative was steering me towards thinking her father was paranoid schizophrenic which would explain why he always thought people were watching him The whole psychology that Caroline has bought into in order to live her life the way Father has convinced her it must be lived means that, even when she is free of Father in the physical sense, he is still guiding her thoughts and actions She returns to the suburb where she was taken and realizes she is not like the people there or who she was when she lived among them Functionally she s an almost adult but she still retains the values that he taught her to be self reliant, not to let people know too much about her, to be constantly aware and in harmony with nature But there s also that creepy part that he taught her to look for someone not unlike who she was at 10, to be her daughter companion.The whole scene with Susan and Paul, who they met in the yurt with all the electrical wires during the snowstorm was extremely creepy Who were those people Had Susan kidnapped Paul at a young age which would make them like us to Father s way of thinking Was she using crystal meth or something along those lines which would explain the lack of affect That Caroline pulled Father, who had been electrocuted, on the sled, hid him during the party in the cave, and afterwards found a place to secrete his body in the depths of the cave where he would not be found was fascinating This is an extremely thought provoking, difficult read You want to root for Caroline and yet her choices are not the ones that most of us would make but they make sense given her circumstances 4.5 stars Lots to love in this novel, starting with the cover That ghost like white horse is Randy, 13 year old Caroline s little plastic companion and familiar daily presence If she were a suburban kid living a mainstream life, she would have probably had a cell phone to fondle by now, but she lives in a hidden camp in the woods with her father and Randy accompanies her as she tells the story of her marginal existence Written entirely from Caroline s perspective, the sentence structure is at 4.5 stars Lots to love in this novel, starting with the cover That ghost like white horse is Randy, 13 year old Caroline s little plastic companion and familiar daily presence If she were a suburban kid living a mainstream life, she would have probably had a cell phone to fondle by now, but she lives in a hidden camp in the woods with her father and Randy accompanies her as she tells the story of her marginal existence Written entirely from Caroline s perspective, the sentence structure is at times slightly askew, which I liked The lights hum, inside Safeway, up by the voices that call out of speakers They are an unhealthy kind of light to be under and so we hurry Father s in the bathroom by the bakery department, shaving, and I m buying what we need by the time he s done.Other passages are childlike yet striking Behind Clarence is Richard, who is looking at me He has drawn lightning bolts in black pen on the sides of his jeans and he s wearing a bright orange T shirt that anyone could see through the forest from a mile away He s twenty or so, Richard His bleached out hair is pulled into rubber bands like ten nubby horns on top of his head He won t get too close or talk straight to me because he s afraid of Father.The wealthy ladies are riding their horses Horses smell thicker than I expected them to Dustier But it s okay and they hardly make me sneeze after the first few times The whole novel carries throughout it a trance like, subdued quality a kind of even pitched humming from a distance, interrupted here and there by disturbing or seemingly misplaced elements I found the subject matter, the characters, and the style infinitely intriguing in spite of the outcome, which may not be the most satisfying of solutions to many readers, but I can stretch a little to get on board with it My Abandonment was a strange and wonderful surprise something I m always looking for and I ll definitely readfrom Peter Rock Leave No Trace, A Film Adaptation Of My Abandonment, Directed By Debra Granik Winter S Bone Premiered At The Sundance Film Festival To Critical Acclaim A Thirteen Year Old Girl And Her Father Live In Forest Park, An Enormous Nature Preserve In Portland, Oregon They Inhabit An Elaborate Cave Shelter, Wash In A Nearby Creek, Store Perishables At The Water S Edge, Use A Makeshift Septic System, Tend A Garden, Even Keep A Library Of Sorts Once A Week They Go To The City To Buy Groceries And Otherwise Merge With The Civilized World But One Small Mistake Allows A Backcountry Jogger To Discover Them, Which Derails Their Entire Existence, Ultimately Provoking A Deeper Flight Inspired By A True Story And Told Through The Startlingly Sincere Voice Of Its Young Narrator, Caroline, My Abandonment Is A Riveting Journey Into Life At The Margins And A Mesmerizing Tale Of Survival And Hope I had forgotten that My Abandonment was largely based on a true story The author s website has.pdf copies of the articles he was drawing from Somebody from Oregon, and maybe the Pacific Northwest in general, might remember when this was in the news, but I wasn t familiar with it The second half of the book is Rock s imagined version of what might have happened to Frank and Ruthie in this book, the girl is called Caroline, and her father goes by several names after they vanished.Entirely I had forgotten that My Abandonment was largely based on a true story The author s website has.pdf copies of the articles he was drawing from Somebody from Oregon, and maybe the Pacific Northwest in general, might remember when this was in the news, but I wasn t familiar with it The second half of the book is Rock s imagined version of what might have happened to Frank and Ruthie in this book, the girl is called Caroline, and her father goes by several names after they vanished.Entirely told in Caroline s straightforward, even oddly matter of fact voice, My Abandonment is a look at a life that s perfectly, entirely normal to Caroline and completely alien to me and most readers She and her father live in a hidden camp in a national park, apparently living off of his military pension It s definitely a strange way of life, but her father obviously loves her very much, in his own way, and has been trying to provide for her, in his own way It s pointed out that Caroline is very bright and has been remarkably well educated, mostly from reading encyclopedias And yet, bright as she is, there s also an emotional strangeness to her voice, probably from being a teenager with the same level of exposure to society at large as a small child would I liked that she was by no means a weak character, even though she did defer to her father.Later in the book, Rock weaves in a few strands of story from the Elizabeth Smart case, which I m uncomfortable about Ruthie and Frank are real people, after all, and presumably still alive I am not comfortable with writing a book transparently and obviously based on their life stories and adding an entirely new element to it view spoiler It s heavily, heavily implied, though never outright stated, that Caroline s father actually kidnapped her as a small child and raised her to believe that she was his daughter hide spoiler Yes, he has artistic license in telling his version of the story, but it s a step too far in a book about obviously real and probably still living people Actually, this probably wouldn t bother me if the first half of the book weren t so closely, even exactly, based on Ruthie and Frank s story I wouldn t call the ending satisfactory, but it certainly felt realistic to me view spoiler It seems like, on some level, Caroline knows and understands that her father isn t her father, but she hasn t fully accepted it Which makes sense to me Without help, it would be very hard for her to break through that level of indoctrination And probably the idea of facing the truth would be frightening for her hide spoiler Ultimately, My Abandonment is a memorable, bittersweet book with an unforgettable narrator I ve seen a few books with this sort of off the grid theme for young adults Alabama Moon, for example and this was the best one that I ve read yet This was an interesting and absorbing book and made for a quick read I was somewhat familiar with one of the real life stories this book is based on, that of the girl and her father living in Forest Park After reading My Abandonment, I was left withquestions than answers there is no obvious line of distinction between reality and fiction here, and in some ways this seems a shame as the real life story is what brought me to this book I got the impression reading this that it started o This was an interesting and absorbing book and made for a quick read I was somewhat familiar with one of the real life stories this book is based on, that of the girl and her father living in Forest Park After reading My Abandonment, I was left withquestions than answers there is no obvious line of distinction between reality and fiction here, and in some ways this seems a shame as the real life story is what brought me to this book I got the impression reading this that it started off as a fictionalized but realistic portrait of two people in an interesting situation, but at some point the book begins to spiral outward into something closer to fantasy By the time I reached the end, I really felt like I knew understood less about the main characters than at the beginning, with much of the framework that the author builds around his protagonists during the first half of the book utterly destroyed by the end Who are these people How did they end up where they were Why did they do what they do At the beginning it seems understandable and by the end, it s a mystery This is the opposite of most books, and in itself helps make it a worthwhile experience, but also somewhat frustrating


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